EXISTING -> LIVING!

Zindagi ke ye pal- jaenge toh kabhi na ayenge, toh kyun na isme hi jee le khul ke

– Selfmusing

In early years of my life, I always dreamt of wearing formals with ID card, getting my office laptop that shouts my name once switched on, a desk with my name plate, colleagues or let’s say friends. While I got my first job(2016 to be specific) it was a wonderful day, excitement, nervousness, butterflies with a smile awaiting the moment where I will be finally independent.

2020 – The year when I realized a hard hitting fact. We were in the year where we enjoyed with our own people, cried with them, laughed with them, no social life, no parties, no traffic, no coming back to Bread Jam, no packing bags at 8:30 in the morning, no queues for lunch at canteen. We lived our lives in a closed shell of 4*4(may vary) and yet were happy- getting up at 7:00 AM for a walk, coming back to delicious hot breakfast, laptop at 9:30 AM on the bed, family lunch with an episode of a comedy show, evening tea with some chit chat about the day, fulfilling dinner with the feeling of fullness even before actually eating made me realize that chasing the childhood dream was a hoax. I was missing on so much.

2024- While I have moved to the new city two years back, I have understood that those days will never come back that were full of serenity, peace and smile which even a handsome salary at the 31st could not find. (Where I moved and how was the journey to the completely new city-will share in the next blog)

So, my dear reader, life is a full circle and remember that you will never be able to walk that path again no matter how much money, power or success you achieve. Hence, if you are happy or sad, content or anxious, if you are with or alone, if you are working or studying or at home, if you are earning or not, let yourself live the moment to the fullest and embrace the beauty these moments hold for you.

Dance on every beat of your life

Life is an awesome journey, keep changing your glares until you start visualizing

Things move so quickly so drastically that till the moment you realise it and soak in, you are already there at the battleground to face it.

I am a firm believer of whatever happens its for good and with time the belief has just grown stronger.

Wondering how? Let me tell you a story- my story.

Last week I was so excited for the trip that me and my friend were planning near Mumbai- stay(check), commute(check), dresses(check) and excitement(double check). We finalized everything on Monday post office hours, Tuesday I announced it to my friends and family, Wednesday to others who were planning for another get together on weekend. And then came Thursday- the day when Mumbai was on orange alert as it was raining cats and dogs. Again after office hours, we called each other and thought over it again- will it be risky, its hilly, hotel team is also not confident for the weather, shall we drop it? And yes when all these questions hovered, we dropped the idea.

Friday, I again announced this to friends and family-now with disappointment.

Suddenly while sitting at home after office hours on Friday, bit upset, some pain shot up in my stomach and yes it was upset as well. Saturday I thought over and waited for it to vanish but no, it was here to stay. Sunday morning, sitting next to doctor, I was just praying the things to go well. Now on a Sunday evening, I am here on my bed, starring at my ceiling fan and calling my manager for leave. Yes, I have been diagnosed with ______ and I need bed rest!

Imagine how one of the supposed to be the best weekend turned out to be a nightmare. But when I look back I don’t regret for the events that took place, rather I feel lucky and blessed that I am saved. Had I been there on a hilly road in a hotel lying down on a bed, I would have been devastated and upset as I would have been troubling my body and my friend.

Now, I believe, everything happens for good, again!

How to keep yourself going?

KEEP GOING! THE SUN WILL FIND THE WAY THROUGH THE SKY TO SHINE ON YOU.

The story of your life is written by your pen, never give that hold to someone else!

Lemme start with a short story on myself-

I am a plus size girl, with long hair, full of traditional values, bit off style! A few days back, I thought of changing myself and thus ended up in a gym. I just started to love the vibe around but ended up with a lack of motivation. I gave myself enough reasons to keep myself going but failed. I left the gym in around 10 days and thus am sitting at home. Suddenly I got a call from my long-distance friend. In the midst of the conversation, he said: “You have all extra, thus help me find a perfect girl.” His sentence gave me a kick that I found myself in the gym again.

Sooner I surrounded myself with some questions like- Is this my motivation? Is this the way I should react to his words? Should I call off my friendship?

I thought the entire day and came to a conclusion- NO! This is not the stimulus to my fitness. I reminded myself of the reason I started the gym (which was my health since you gain a lot of diseases being obese). I found my perfect motivation.

So my dear friend, in life, people will throw stones, knowingly or unknowingly. Always remind yourself of the reason why you started your journey.

I see people starting their makeup blogs, style blogs, food blogs etc. I wondered, what might be the reason for their ongoing journey. I encountered a lot of people and asked the same wherein the frequent answers were- to do something for yourself which makes you feel happy from within and thus gives you another push towards the aim to achieve the target you set for yourself when you started.

Always keep in mind- ‘Yes! It’s going to be difficult but it will be worth it‘

You are born special!

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JOURNEY decides the DESTINY

It is not about the DESTINY but the JOURNEY

‘Is kashti ka naam zindagi tha

yaha sawaar hokar nikalna asaan tha

manjhdaar pe ruki thi zindagi

ye manzil paane ka junoon kahi aur le gaya’

During my schooling, I thought I will be an engineer. When I was just about to become an engineer, I thought I will be a Manager. Now when I am finally about to become a Manager, I choose to become a Human.

I came to another city, away from my family, for the first time, having lot of dreams inside my eyes and some inside my heart(Shhhh… Not to be shared). During the process of achieving the dreams, I have lost my own self. Now when I feel to look and try to go back to my old self, the fog of my wrong choices block my sight.

We usually think that going with the flow is the best option because we are so confused in our lives that we cannot see our next coming five minutes of the day. While going ahead, we meet a lot of trees, some offer healthier fruits some poisoned, obviously the later being more lucrative. We try both and then fall in love with the slow poison without realizing that it is making us away from our desired destiny and closer towards the end.

WE JUST GO WITH THE FLOW.

If at all I have a chance to reverse the time,  I would improve the ability of choosing my portion of food!

 

Translation:

is kashti ka naam zindagi tha: the name of this cock boat was life

yaha sawaar hokar nikalna asaan tha: travelling on it was easier

manjhdaar pe ruki thi zindagi: life was stuck in a midstream

ye manzil paane ka junoon kahi aur le gaya: the passion of achieving the destiny diverted the path

 

 

God created sun in 4 days than how did those days go by..

STONES THAT MATTER

Zindagi chaar pal ki jeena yaha marna yaha iske siwa jana kahan

I was wondering how the letter 4 matters the most in our life: 4 dhaam, 4 kandhe, 4 paai- from the start of the circle of life to the end.

life gives us thousands of reason to make us realize that life is over, its the end of the circle but then, a new ray a new circle begins.

There was a time when all my life’s decision started getting red signals, everything in the world was upside down, I was not successful personally or professionally my life looked like a black hole I almost threw my hopes in the trash box and killed my dreams with my own opinions, I saw a silver lining. No! Stop! I was still able to survive! I can survive! That lining came from my soul shouting only you can draw a new circle.

The ray of sunlight was so bright that it took away my tears and made me refilled with hopes zeal and life again.

Usually in life in these 4 days of darkness we never realize that these days will also pass by and life will take a new turn.

My black hole could be coloured with stronger paint!

From the strangest part of roads we traveled there was some part that taught us how to jump from the bigger stones and throw the smaller ones. We never change our way because of stones, then why the mountain of 4 days leave us tarnished from all spheres of life.

A new sun is always waiting to come to shine by, it just needs persistence and patience, it just needs 4 days…

“MOST GREAT PEOPLE HAVE ATTAINED THERE GREATEST SUCCESS JUST ONE STEP BEYONF THEIR GREATEST FAILURE” – NAPOLEAN HILL

 

GULF OF ALASKA: Opinions that should never merge!

Zindagi ek safar hai suhana, yaha kal kya ho kisne jaana

An old movie song just made me realize about how wonderfully my life has always treated me without me actually realizing that. In a world of 7.6bn hearts and heads I have my own 7 people.

There is always a story with everyone. There is always a great life career plan with everyone but the twists life gives you are unbeatable and unimaginable infront of your own plannings!

Most of us consider ouselves as an introvert shy and ‘likes to be in the shell’ types, we are mostly told this by our sister/brother/mom/colleagues/xyz. Who gave them this right. Introvertness/extrovertness/ambivertness are relative to ones thought process. An extrovert is an introvert infront of an extra extrovert!

whatever the life gives us, we forget about our opinion about ourselves. we involve ourselves their opinions and make it ours. eg: A guy in a pub approached you is enough to make you feel confident enough about yourself. Isn’t is relative to his needs or opinion.

We forget about our life’s expensive and valuable investment: Our own head heart and life!

While browsing through my social media account I realized I have 764 friends in my list and i hardly talk to 7 people which is 1% of them. While thinking about the reason, I realized its just the acceptance by my peers that made me increase my fake friendlist and mark it open for ‘FRIENDS’. The fear of being judged have made me wear decent clothes in public, the fear of being accepted have made me a smoker in public but a non smoker my self, the fear of being liked forced me to be a sanskari obidient papa’s girl.

I always have that question: Shouldn’t be our opinion the superiorest? 😉

“BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO LIVE THE LIFE OF YOUR DREAMS ACCORDING TO YOUR VISION AND PURPOSE INSTEAD OF EXPECTATIONS AND OPINIONS OF OTHERS”- ROY BENNETT

 

Searching the meaning of life

“Life doesn’t require that we be the best, only that we try the best!”

                                                                                                                – H. Jackson Brown Jr.

Is this life really that simple? Is this the only thing required out of life? These questions hover over my mind all the time. What if I try and I don’t succeed. What if I try and I succeed in the field I never desired to be. Life revolves around so many questions like this. for instance: I was preparing for my IIT and I succeeded in my state level exam (I would not call it a failure), I was preparing for ASE job and I succeeded in an MBA entrance exam. Where life wants to take you sometimes comes as a surprise for you. I always remember a simple thing which was quoted by my dad that whatever happens is always for a reason- either to make you big or to prepare you for the same. I wonder over these things sometimes. I don’t know if that’s real of not but I tend to believe in it. As we don’t know whether god is or not and we believe in its existence, as we don’t know whether Mahabharata ever existed but we believe in its learning.

In every phase of my life I try to learn. I don’t know what has created that instinct in me. I learn from all the tit bits of my life. According to me, yes you try is the most important thing but only trying leads you nowhere. You need to enhance your each day through your learning or we can say that you have to add your pinch of salt in each try.